When nothing makes sense

There is no simple response to the pain. No words fill the deep void for the unexplainable loss. Life is not fair. This weekend, a friend of mine lost a co-worker unexpectedly to a brain aneurysm. This weekend, I also lost a co-worker unexpectedly. In what should have been a joyous occasion, she lost her life while giving birth. 

No words can fill these deep crevices of pain. 

To say, I will be praying is true, but as I prayed, I confessed to God….what am I supposed to pray? Yes, for comfort. But peace? What peace is there in these types of situations?

Times like this we must lean. Lean into one another. Lean into the people God has placed in our lives. Lean into people to uphold us, to keep us strong. And most importantly, although we do not understand, we lean into God.

The world is a broken place. During the sermon yesterday at church, the minister quoted John 16:33…These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have trials and sorrows, but take heart, I have overcome the World.

Life is not promised to be perfect or painless. I believe God hurts when we hurt. I believe this because He loves us. I can’t try to understand why this stuff happens. I can only lean….lean into others, lean into Christ.

Life promises no one another moment. Hug your children. Love your family and friends. Forgive people. Forgive yourself. 

Today is another​ day. It may be a day filled with unexplainable loss as in these situations. I don’t know your story, but I do know that God is in the midst of our lives. 

I have to believe this. When nothing else makes sense, I have to cling to my faith that He is walking through these difficult times with us.

Tears of Transparency

My heart is sad this morning. It has been a restless, short night of sleep. We learned of my husband’s uncle’s completely unexpected death last night. We are devastated. The hardest part of being a parent is seeing your children cry and to know they are hurting. It is our son’s first experience losing someone close. Our daughter is in another state and unable to come home for a few days. It is hard to not be present to console her.

Knowing your children are hurting is so difficult as a parent. As much as you hurt, seeing the tears of your child is that much more heart wrenching. We have always tried to encourage our children to share their feelings with us and to be open.

Transparency in my feelings… something I am not always so great at. Being willing to be transparent and vulnerable in your feelings with someone you trust can open the floodgates to understanding. Yes, it feels risky and uncomfortable especially if you are like me and not used to talking about feelings. I would rather suffer in silence, but I know God doesn’t desire that for us. And, I certainly don’t want to model that behavior for my children.

So, through this difficult time right now, we will pull together and comfort one another. Tears are the unspoken language of transparency and vulnerability. They are a bridge to understanding.

Life is often not easy, but with God and the support of those we love and trust, we can walk through the valleys and know we are not alone.