“I’m worried about you, Tammy.”
These were the words expressed by a trusted friend as I shared my heart with her regarding my anxiety struggles with time and balance.
I looked at her. I knew she was right. If I didn’t listen to the warnings to slow down and breathe, God would find a way to grab my attention and do this for me.
It came in the form of a massive toothache yesterday morning. I don’t think there is anything worse than a toothache. The side of my face was swollen. My head ached. I couldn’t eat. It hurt too much.
I pushed through my day because that’s what I do. I am tough. I don’t have time to slow down. There are deadlines to meet. I went to a doctor’s appointment in the morning and left with an appointment for an ultrasound. Huge sigh… definitely don’t have time for that. Then, I worked a late night.
This morning, I was up by 4:30 working. When I let my boss know that I wasn’t feeling well but would be in a little while later, she had a different thought…stay home, take care of yourself.
I don’t do well at that (taking care myself).
Well, you are going to get better at that.
So, I have been to the dentist and have been awarded the patient with the most reactive body. The infection was not deep, just barely on the first root, but it was definitely infected. I walked away with two appointments for a root canal and a prescription for an antibiotic.
I am home now after waiting forever at the pharmacy. I am nursing a raging headache but I am resting and working. It is quiet.
God knows how to get my attention. Everything will be okay.
Breathe. Life is all about perspective. When you can see and feel the grace of God in a thumping toothache He uses to slow you down, you know you are loved deeply. Sure, maybe it’s not the way I would have preferred to be slowed down, but His ways are not our ways.
I received this in a text message today from that same friend:
Tammy, I just love it when God gives that confirmation! You are definitely on the right track! Taking care of you is most important because that is indeed what God wanted to happen in your life. The rest will all fall into place under his plan.
Breathe…God’s grace is sufficient for me.