The joy of the Midwestern spring weather is that one day, you’re hot, and the next day you’re cold. Today was a cold day.
It is amazing how our moods can so easily mirror the tone of the day. It was cold, dreary, windy, and rainy today. Teenage boys seem oblivious to cold weather, though. I opted to stay in the car as my husband and son trekked across the soccer field for pictures.
As I sat in the warmth of our Jeep, I stared across empty fields. The stillness of the park, its emptiness, and lack of activity spoke to me.
Today has been a reflective day. As I weigh through things in my mind, I can appreciate the mood of the day. The gray skies seem to offer permission, telling me it’s okay to have a quiet day. Last weekend, I cleaned and sorted. This weekend, I seek to be still, one question lingering in my mind from my morning devotions.
In Matthew, Jesus asks the two blind men, “What do you want me to do for you?”
Mark Batterson, author of Draw the Circle, says,
We have no idea what we want God to do for us, and then we wonder why it seems like God isn’t doing anything for us. The great irony, of course, is that if we can’t answer this question, then we’re as blind spiritually as these men were physically. Most of us don’t get what we want simply because we don’t know what we want
Which has had me pondering all day….What do I want God to do for me?
I know what I am struggling with, and I know what I don’t want, but do I know what I want?
So, I am quiet, reflective, wondering….what do I really want? What is in the bottom of my heart? Am I brave enough to pray for God to reveal, to speak, to share? Am I listening?
What do you want? What are the desires of your heart? What are your hopes, your dreams?
Are you brave enough to ask God for the desires of your heart and then trust Him with the answers without knowing what they will be?
I want to be that brave.