That word describes me lately.
As I contemplated my life the other day, looking out at this view, I reflected on my friends’ lives, my staff members’ lives….things seeming to fall apart for people. Marriages falling apart. Financial issues. Health concerns.
My own life…far from what I ever envisioned but my marriage is sound, my children are healthy, I am a thousand times healthier than I was a few years back, I have a wonderful job….yet my life is filled with uncertainty.
As I work on freelance writing for the newspaper, I thought… this isn’t the type of writing I want to do. As I thought of going back to work Monday morning, I felt myself becoming anxious with concerns of all that needed addressed. I questioned my career choice…am I where I want to be?
And then…amidst all the chaotic thoughts colliding in my mind, I hear a spoken word… contentment. I paused, knowing…the restless stirring of my heart, mind, thoughts. I have lost my focus.
Contentment. I need to focus on the blessings. I need to focus on the day at hand. I need to choose not to worry and instead give it to God.
If there was any doubt, God gently reminded me Monday morning as I opened my Charles Stanley devotional…on feeling frustrated.. the Bible reading from Philippians….confirming for me the need to focus on choosing contentment.
I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. Philippians 4:12-13