I have always enjoyed silence.
A quiet moment in the morning before anyone else is awake. The world outside is still. Life moves at my pace for a snapshot in time before the craziness of the day begins.
That is silence in solitude.
Comfortable silence with others represents a closer, more intimate relationship reserved only for close friends. I can sit with my best friend or husband and say nothing, and it is OK. We are comfortable with each other even when we are saying nothing.
What about when God is silent?
This is where I am right now.
The last few months of last year as I struggled with my job in a difficult work environment, I surrendered the situation to God. I said ‘Yes” every morning before knowing what I was facing. I spoke with God all through the day…Psalm 61:2….when my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the Rock that is higher than I. God clearly spoke to me so many times through those challenging days.
Now, I am in a new job with a much better work culture, but am struggling with work and family balance and a trying staff member. My husband’s situation with his job….uncertain. The direction of our church as we seek to plan the direction God desires for us to go next. Other unknowns in my life. Emotional situations.
Which leads me to ask…what, God, do You desire for me to learn from the silence?
Just as I could not see the wind today on my walk but could physically see the tree branches thrashing back and forth with the force of the wind that pulled me towards one side of the sidewalk, I know wind exists. I cannot see it, but I can feel it. God’s silence is the same. I cannot hear God speak now, but I know He continues to be with me.
What can I seek to learn through this time of silence?
- Silence is not the same as absence.
- Silence is an opportunity to trust. God has spoken to me so powerfully the past few months; He has provided me with His lessons that can continue to lead me through my daily struggles now.
- Silence doesn’t mean nothing is happening. I can trust that God is continuing to work in my life.
- Silence is a time for me to really examine my life…what areas may God be asking me to surrender or confess or trust Him more with?
- Silence is an opportunity to trust His sovereign will.
- Silence provides me the opportunity to remember all the ways He has worked in my life in the past, the ways He has blessed me, and has taken care of me.
- Silence provides me with the choice….will I continue to worship Him even when it is hard, even when I may not feel like it, even when it may be easier to simply accept things as they are?
Psalm 13 (NLT)
O Lord, how long will You forget me? Forever?
How long will You look the other way?
How long must I struggle with anguish in my soul, with sorrow in my heart every day?
How long will my enemy have the upper hand?
Turn and answer me, O Lord my God!
Restore the sparkle to my eyes, or I will die.
Don’t let my enemies gloat saying, “We have defeated him!”
Don’t let them rejoice at my downfall.
But I trust in Your unfailing love.
I will rejoice because You have rescued me.
I will sing to the Lord because He is good to me.
Silence can speak powerful truths if we are still enough to listen.