I started this 31 day journey, and I clearly have not written every day.
In the absence of writing, I have been learning to listen to God speak. Speaking through the counsel of my best friend, my family, the quiet moments in the morning and the stillness of the night, the way my body feels, the words of the sermon at church yesterday…
These past few days, I have realized, well, I am still wrestling with this, but I am slowly realizing, that sometimes surrendering means it is OK to do nothing. It is OK to say to God, I can’t do this anymore. It is OK to tell God that I need help with my unbelief.
When you come face to face with the reality that what is standing in the way of God working in your life is possibly you….then you realize that truly to surrender is to possibly simply be still. To do nothing, is to do something. It is to step out of the way, pray, rest in Him, and allow Him to work.
To surrender, to do nothing, to be still, to listen. And that is enough right now. He is in control.