I worked a very long day yesterday. I woke up at 4:30 this morning wide awake but still tired. What do you think my devotion was about this morning….rest. Rest is what I need. Yes, I need sleep, but what I have been learning is that I need to rest in the Lord.
I like the King James translation of Psalm 37:7…. “rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for him.” Other translations use the words “be still” instead of rest. Both rest and being still are not things I am good at. I want to control things. I want to manipulate the circumstances sometimes so that I might know how things will turn out….sooner than later. What I am learning is that what He wants for me to do is simply rest. Rest does not mean doing nothing…I think it means taking a deep breath, mindfully looking for God in the little everyday things, and trusting Him to the greater details, the bigger picture, and the work that we can not see.
Daily, I need reminded of this. He is my rest. When I rest in Him, the pressure to control everything and fix everything is released from me…the anxiety lifts…my tired soul can rest. So, today, this Friday, pray for His help so you can truly rest in Him as you wait on His work in your life.
It has been a while since I last wrote a blog entry. I simply have not felt like it. I have felt pulled different directions lately…not in a bad way, but in a reflective way. I began this blog as an outlet to release the feelings, the anxiety, and the frustrations that come from having to deal with daily food issues…the ups and downs of not feeling well, the frustrations of not being able to just eat whatever I want, and the anxiety of social food events. Food issues once were my focus. They once consumed me. I still struggle with them. I still get frustrated at times as I drive by the local ice cream shop in my town advertising my once favorite sundae as the daily special. I still overindulge in chocolate at times. I have colon issues and reflux at times and lie in bed unable to sleep because I ate dinner too late.
This stuff is all relative, though. The past few months, I have been challenged…challenged to grow deeper in my faith with God by changing my heart, surrendering, and learning to trust. God has used my desire to write and my food issues to show His faithfulness in providing a best friend who “gets” me. This writing partner and accountability partner is challenging me on this spiritual journey to grow deeper.
So, here I am…I have so much I want to share, so much to write about. I want to blog again. So, what about faith, hope, love, and food? I believe it still fits…God has just transformed the meaning for me.
Psalm 34:8 Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the one who takes refuge in Him.
John 6:35 Jesus replied, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never be hungry again. Whoever believes in me will never be thirsty again.”
I choose to embrace faith, hope, and love. And, I choose to embrace Jesus as the food of my life. No longer enslaved by the grip of anxiety and fear of food issues, I will embark on this journey of seeking a deeper spiritual connection with my Creator, the bread of my life. I invite you to join me on this spiritual journey of seeking to know Him more fully and deeper…to truly taste and see that the Lord is indeed good.