This morning I unwrapped my Yogi dandelion tea with a message that really resonated with me: “Be proud of who you are.”
It has been a soul-searching past couple of weeks for me. I have a lot of decisions hanging open…decisions that are beyond my control. I am at the mercy of others as I wait to hear about whether or not my son was accepted into another school. I am at the mercy of others as I wait to find out about other life changing situations in my life.
Each of these situations cause questions to arise in me. They cause me to reflect and analyze my current life situation and assess where I am in life and where I wish I was at. Needless to say, I’m not where I want to be yet.
I have shed some tears, spent hours talking with a good friend as she allowed me to pour out my heart and then asked me some hard questions, questions I needed to hear. I have journaled the inner most thoughts of my heart.
The truth is, I am a work in progress. I am learning from life’s experiences, pleasant and unpleasant, and growing from these experiences. I need to embrace that God has created me to be me. Nothing more. I don’t need to waste time comparing myself to others. It doesn’t matter the size of my paycheck, the clothes I wear, the car I drive, the fact I have a gazillion food intolerance issues….I am who I am.
I am unique. I am loved. I am His. My timeline is not His timeline. I am learning to trust in Him and trust that I am uniquely His.